Like all good new years resolutions I completely failed. I knew before 2012 began I had to leave the taxi business, that way I could start fresh for the new year. Things started half good and half bad. I went out on the weekends to photograph some neighborhoods in New York City, that was productive.
I applied to a few jobs that I knew would make less money, but at least they would help me get some more experience on my resumé to help me move to another city in due time. Unfortunately I only started applying to jobs last week. I realized that I didn't have that many dreamy cool locations in mind where I'd like to work. What if nobody calls me back?? YipeS!!! Then I looked at how much money I had left in my bank account, and compared that with what I would have to pay in the next month, DOUBLE YIPES!! Yeah, so taxi driving isn't so bad hahaha. Well it'll do. It keeps me getting out in the morning every day, it puts money in my pocket.
I'm going to try and relax now. I always tell myself the key to being a good driver is to relax and not worry about so many things... The stress of every conceivable possibility does weigh on me though and it always wins. No matter how many times I tell myself that I have plenty of work days to make money, the job just dictates all the receptors in my brain to work for that minute, and it's degrading to my right to be an independent soul.
So I'll keep this all in mind. Eventually I'll probably be overfunded again, even though I am pre-wired not to believe so. I have to make a list of things I need to buy.
- A new pillow for my driving seat. I've had my current one for the last 6+ years, and it's really contributing to driving frustrations like a bad back, or just bad visibility and discomfort.
- Pants. Every pair of pants I have has one or more holes in it.
- iphone. This will solve multiple problems. I can use it as a GPS, I can watch movies, play movies, send more texts to friends, and also send live blog posts from the airports
- A car, I would cut my commute time in half by having a car.
Maybe when these are purchased I'll be more comfortable with the work. Yes, go on a shopping spree, that'll make me happy... Pshhh!! And so the hunt for moneys begins!