Friday, August 19, 2011

I'm sorry

I'm sorry, that I just haven't been able to give this blog the respect that it deserves. I haven't posted all the pictures I wanted. I haven't been able to fill it with juicy stories.

the story part is the real tragedy here. most of my job has become a project for me to move as much into the mundane as possible, and all the nuances of the job have really become closely examined, and for the most part any people that seemed the least bit weird, or out of ordinary were just that, they have been only slightly off, and all has really been mild entertainment for me. but as days, paved way to years, I just wanted everything to be normal, I didn't want any drama, i didn't want any story produced at my expense. I have a few stories, some of which I have put down in this blog, and some that I haven't, and that very very mild accumulation was enough to me. I decided to go from working 2 days a week, to 3 days a week, to 4 days a week, and now 5 days a week. Many times I have minimized my 12 hour days to 10 hours, and cut my night hours out of my shift. I have avoided risk and taken large pay cuts, all just to grade my excellence on my skill to avoid trouble rather than my skill to pull in money.

the real truth in the cab business now is the most dangerous part, the hardest part, and what makes me pull out my hair is the other drivers, who play chicken with me and use lanes that don't even exist to steal customers from me, cars who are yellow cabs, my fellow man, and women, but also car service cars, also weekend warriors from New Jersey, also good bus drivers, bad bus drivers, garbage trucks, and just plane non-descript assholes. people for 3 to 4 hours of my day can be commonly using their vehicles as assault tools, to threaten my life, to threaten all that I hold dear. and at the end of a calm day, I make 70 dollars. At the end of a better day 120, which is rare now. I can barely afford the rent, and despite all of this the cabbies keep coming, the lease prices never go down, and the government won't give me free healthcare. this project should end, and it should end very soon. I just don't know what to do next.

this thing is still really really awesome and fun. I love taking in all these people, as I have an anxiety about people in general, and 99% of the time they prove me wrong, people as a whole are very very good, and I feel thankful that I am a part of this thing we call humankind, but the powers that be are not fitting many lower class jobs sufficiently into the economic puzzle. this and many other jobs when performed at the highest and fairest levels do not provide a livable wage. Remember as an independent contractor I pay 15% of my income in taxes, i dunno maybe more i don't remember.

Anyway this isn't exactly goodbye, it's just an acknowledgement that I'm not authoring this blog like I should be. We'll se where it goes from here. Maybe it'll free me up to write more about what's on my mind, and dump more good pictures in here. But make no mistake this should be coming to a close eventually.

6 comments:

Kalei's Best Friend said...

I am so sorry you are going through this.. I for one will miss your photos... They are raw, earthy, simple yet detailed and sensitive...

NYC taxi photo said...

thanks. I wish I could say what this is. I'd like to say that I'm going to keep plugging away at the blog. I think I will keep it up. maybe i'll find a way to make it all work. lower my stress load and work load by a significant bit. I'm afraid it all sounds a bit too unreal though.

I just want you all to know honestly that I'm giving real thought to leaving the job, possibly leaving the city, though my apartment lease isn't up until may. I have no plans yet, but nothing is out of the question.

Black Cat Cab said...

That's sad.
Thank you. I got a helpful information, by that stories, photos and videos, about a NYC Taxi.

All the best. ;)

TaxiTwit said...

I'm sorry to hear you're thinking of stopping but maybe you're right.

Sadly, it's the same the world over, including my own country, Ireland.

With the recession, money is tight but they remember the last 'expensive' taxi they got and think, 'hey, I could do that and make a fortune'. They don't know about the long waits inbetween jobs...

Good luck with whatever you do...

Danny said...

Very Very tough here In London driving a black cab, but the Big picture Iam not starving and have food and shelter unlike so many in this world. Materialism , there are still people that live their lives for this, sick world.

Anonymous said...

All experienced cab drivers know the best times in a year to make money.The routine never changes so why bother when its so stacked against you ?It's your choice go with your gut feeling would you really wont any of your kids to be cab drivers ? I doubt you would TC & GL